【共享娅乐】 Olivia Rodrigo《you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love》—爱与自我的和解

爱是世界的答案吗？是值得我们不惜粉身碎骨也要攀登摘取的果实吗？在热恋的狂热过后，面临着对前路的迷茫，对失去的恐惧，我们要如何与自我和解？Olivia Rodrigo将这种疑问剖析出来，完完整整的展示在了我们面前：

“荡秋千达到最高点，那是失重感最强最兴奋也是意外最容易发生的时刻，即使在幸福的巅峰，她也时刻怀疑这一切会不会就像绳索断开一样转瞬即逝，这也是为什么她是一个在热恋中如此悲伤的女孩”

《you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love》

《恋女何悲》

一，开幕：迷恋的狂热

track one：《drop dead》

I know that the bar closes at 11 I hope you never finish that beer You know all the words to “Just Like Heaven” And I know why he wrote them Now that you’re standing right here Ohh One night I was bored in bed And stalked you on the internet It’s feminine intuition ‘Cause I always had a vision of us standing like this All pressed up in the bathroom line You’re looking like an angel on the walls of Versailles The most alive I’ve ever been But kiss me and I might drop dead And I feel like I might throw up Left hook, right punch to the gut You’re so so pretty boy I’m paranoid I made you up Yeah I’d love it if you walked me home If you promised we could go real slow Because I got chewing gum And a bunch of stuff I’d like to know Like, have you ever been to Japan? Or taken that Eurostar to France? I’ve been dropping hints all night That I’d love it if you held my hand, goddamn And then maybe we could make-makeout Clothes off and fall to the ground Let’s go steady Let’s go out And tell the whole damn world how One night I was bored in bed And stalked you on the internet It’s feminine intuition ‘Cause I always had a vision of us standing like this All pressed up in the bathroom line You’re looking like an angel on the walls of Versailles The most alive I’ve ever been But kiss me and I might Pisces and a Gemini But I think we might go really nice together If you let me stay the night Well I think I might just have to stay forever Pisces and a Gemini But I think we might go really nice together If you let me stay the night Well I think I might just have to stay forever Ohh One night I was bored in bed And stalked you on the internet It’s feminine intuition ‘Cause I always had a vision of us standing like this All pressed up in the bathroom line You’re looking like an angel on the walls of Versailles The most alive I’ve ever been But kiss me and I might Kiss me and I might Kiss me and I might drop dead

全专最迷幻的一首歌，“我是如此的喜欢你，就像每个陷入暗恋的女孩一样，我会在网上搜索你的所有信息，只是想到你就会让我高兴的睡不着觉，哪怕只是在排队等候卫生间的路上，你在我眼里看起来都像是凡尔赛宫壁画中的天使一样，我像知道关于你的一切，参与你的一切，如果你亲吻我的话，我可能会就此昏死过去”

娅娅用迷幻的音乐勾勒出一个任何处于热烈期的人都会拥有的愿景：“如果我得到了你，我就得到了全世界”

track two：《stupid song》

New York City’s never looked so blue My friends are smoking blunts in the bathroom They say that honest love Is a cage that makes you feel free And all the girls at this party are so cool That’s never been a thing that I could do But I can’t help but imagine What you say when you speak with me You’re a spark in the dark And my clothes all caught aflame You should feel how I feel When somebody says your name I’m a car speeding down The boulevard without a brake And I want you more than Any stupid song could ever say I’m a heart made of wax And I’m melting in the sun I’m a thread on your shirt That is coming undone I feel right, I feel wrong I feel totally insane And I want you more than Any stupid song could ever say Walking through the park with my head high Past all the college girls and the drunk guys And if there is a God He’s the bond that’s between us two Seven nights alone and a skipped meal I’m sleeping in my dress and my high heels And I’m too shy to say what I see When I dream of you When I dream of you You’re a spark in the dark And my clothes all caught aflame You should feel how I feel When somebody says your name I’m a car speeding down The boulevard without a brake And I want you more than Any stupid song could ever say I’m a heart made of wax And I’m melting in the sun I’m a thread on your shirt That is coming undone I feel right, I feel wrong I feel totally insane And I want you more than Any stupid song could ever say Every night like the one before Dream of you from like 1 to 4 Positively and truly sure Nobody’s wanted somebody more It’s a thing that I can’t ignore Tell your friends that you’re mine I’m yours With the hand on my heart I swore Nobody’s wanted somebody more It’s a thing that I can’t ignore Tell your friends that you’re mine I’m yours With the hand on my heart I swore I’m going crazy I’m going mad I want you baby so bad You’re a spark in the dark And my clothes all caught aflame You should feel how I feel When somebody says your name I’m a car speeding down The boulevard without a brake And I want you more than Any stupid song could ever say I’m a heart made of wax And I’m melting in the sun I’m a thread on your shirt That is coming undone I feel right, I feel wrong I feel totally insane And I want you more than Any stupid song could ever say

我个人的全专最佳，从一段主歌娓娓道来开始，情绪随着副歌不断攀升然后随着弦乐戛然而止，紧接着第二段主歌伴随着越来越狂热的鼓点，将所有的情绪全部伴随着高潮宣泄出来，最后却在歌曲末尾戛然而止，就像是表白一样，“我将我所有的爱宣泄给你，最后却又在寂静和不安中等待你的回应”

track tree：honeybee

So I guess that it’s true Time can heal even the worst of wounds And the cliches I knew Seemed so commonplace when I saw you Let’s just walk in the dark Hop the fence in the park Baby boy, honeybee God I love the way you look at me And it’s too hard to describe this In a way that feels honest But even when I’m quiet I love you baby, I promise And I hope I never see What your face looks like going A face I swear that I could Spend my whole life knowing Here’s to hoping Pick me up, walk me home And it feels like God threw me a bone Sticky sweet, tangerine Would you sit and keep me company In the dark, I’m not scared I just reach and you’re right there Shooting stars, racing cars Everything I own just feels like ours It’s too hard to describe this In a way that feels honest But even when I’m quiet I love you baby, I promise And I hope I never see What your face looks like going A face I swear that I could Spend my whole life knowing Here’s to hoping I hope I never see What your face looks like going A face I swear that I could Spend my whole life knowing Here’s to hoping It’s too hard to describe this In a way that feels honest But even when I’m quiet I promise And I hope I never see What your face looks like going A face I swear that I could Spend my whole life knowing Here’s to hoping

“我们在一起啦！可是为什么我会感到悲伤呢，你是如此的美好，如此的温柔，可是我总是会忍不住的想，想那些失败的恋情，想我们如果分手时你离去的背影会多么的让我感到悲伤”

在用钢琴与弦乐编织出的童话般的氛围下，温柔的背景和声中，藏着却是无与伦比的悲伤，我爱你，我害怕失去你，也许，得到与失去本就是注定一起的东西

track four：maggots for brains
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My day is so mundane, I don't think I left the house Drank a pot of coffee, tried to write, nothing came out Somehow, it's the weekend, I'm still bored out of my skull And I went to the party but only on principle Empty, who can leave? I'm a zombie in my body, I'm a train off the track I feel dirty, I feel rotten, and the colors are all flat I'm a sad shell of a woman, and I've got maggots for brains But that's just a thing that happens When my, when my baby goes away When my baby goes away He goes away Everything feels moldy like the fruit that's in my fridge And everything that's funny, I wish I could tell to him And sometimes, at a low point, I even wish for tragеdy 'Cause I know he'd come ovеr and take real good care of me It's so weird (Oh), he's not here (Oh) I'm a zombie in my body, I'm a train off the track I feel dirty, I feel rotten, and the colors are all flat I'm a sad shell of a woman, and I've got maggots for brains But that's just a thing that happens When my, when my baby goes away When my baby goes away He goes away, oh What can I do but think of you? But think of you? (But think of you?) What can I do but think of you? (What can I do?) But think of you? (But think of) I'm a zombie in my body, I'm a train off the track I feel dirty, I feel rotten, and the colors are all flat I'm a sad shell of a woman, and I've got maggots for brains But that's just a thing that happens When my, when my baby goes away What can I do (When my baby goes away) but think of you? But think of you? (Away, when my baby goes away) What can I do (When my baby goes away) but think of you? But think of you? (Away)

很美的一首情绪朋克，娅娅开始向我们展示恋爱时那些不正常的却又不可避免的控制欲，必须要让深爱的对方无时无刻陪在自己身边，离了你我就思绪混乱，离了你我就情绪崩溃，伴随着无与伦比的控制欲展现的，是对失去这段感情的极致恐惧

track five：u + me = ᐸ3

I think that you're killer With your floppy hair Take me out to dinner You know you can take me anywhere And all of my girlfriends roll their eyes And tell me to take it slow this time And I've got a feeling, wounds are healing talking on the phone I know everybody changes, but I hope that we don't Carve our names into the car seat leather You plus me, equals a heart forever A heart forever, oh-oh I like your big sister She has your same face And I try to win her over With my cynical humor and yacht rock music taste And all my ex-boyfriends have heard these lines (Let's get married when we both turn twenty-five) But I like you better by a million times And I've got a feeling, wounds are healing talking on the phone I know everybody changes, but I hope that we don't Carve our names into the car seat leather You plus me, equals a heart forever A heart forever, oh-oh A heart forever If you buy me silver jewelry and all my favorite Cadbury And tell me yet again 'bout how we met and that you thought of me Sometimes I get overwhelmed and way too far, I hurt myself I often get the feeling that I'll never want somebody else They say modern love's a cruel endeavor (They say it's cruel) And to that I say, "**** it, whatever" (Whatever) And I've got a feeling, wounds are healing talking on the phone I know everybody changes, but I hope that we don't Carve our names into the car seat leather You plus me, equals a heart forever (Forever and ever and ever) A heart forever, oh-oh Forever and ever and ever, oh-oh Sounds good

这首歌描绘了一个美好的愿景，我们一起简单的打闹，开着车兜风，简单的见了家长，我希望我们可以永远在一起，等到我们老了，我们可以笑着回忆过去，回忆我们是如何走到一起，就像每一对热恋中的情侣一样~

track six：my way

It’s a little hard to stomach All your amateur moves You know he’s with me, like obviously But you linger in the air Just like a bad perfume It’s getting to me, embarrassingly And here’s the part Where the girl gets pissed And the girl is me Did you get that hint? You’re in my way now Don’t go Go where you don’t belong Think I can’t make out Ah-ah How hard you hang on Kind of insane how You keep calling But you never get the message It goes my way now Ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah Man, I wonder what you think Is gonna go down You send him another poem And think that he’ll let me go Or maybe you’re just tryna Get me riled up now You’re posting another pic In clothes that I know are his Well here’s a map Of the lines I drew And some girl steps over And the girl is you You’re in my way now Don’t go Go where you don’t belong Think I can’t make out Ah-ah How hard you hang on Kind of insane how You keep calling But you never get the message It goes my way now Ah-ah, ah-ah-ah So where’d you get that confidence from? Last time that I checked I won Let me be direct Just stop! You’re being ****ing weird Maybe I’m a petty bitch But you made me resort to this That’s it, I win That’s it, I win You’re in my way now Don’t go Go where you don’t belong Think I can’t make out Ah-ah How hard you hang on Kind of insane how You keep calling But you never get the message It goes my way now Ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah Ah-ah, ah-ah Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah Ah-ah, ah-ah

婊里婊气的摇滚，霸道的向全世界宣告，所有的女（特别是想做小三的）的都滚远点，你们根本就招惹不起我，离我的男朋友远点，你娅向艾薇儿致敬中（diss某个小三中）

二，间奏：多巴胺消散过后

track seven：purple

It's funny When your mom shows pictures of you in your school clothes Your buzzcut And scrapes on your knees change, but those eyes still know And it's crazy (It's crazy) How I used to visit your town like a tourist Now I got (I got) A local grocery store and a favorite florist And so it goes that You kiss my neck May our paths intersect 'til the two lines formed a circle And I melt with you, your red and my blue Now I see the world in purple, purple Now a toothbrush A coat and pair of shoes all come in double (Double, double, double) And we fight Over who I'm hanging out with like a real couple (Couple, couple, couple) It's a small world (It's a small world) On and on again, revolve around us two It's crazy (It's crazy) I had big dreams 'til I tied myself to you Now I'm all-consumed in You kiss my neck May our paths intersect 'til the two lines formed a circle And I melt with you, your red and my blue Now I see the world in purple, purple I see the world in, I see the world in purple (Purple, purple, purple) I see the world in, I see the world in purple (Purple, purple, purple) Melt with you 'til it all turns black Are we so in love? Are we too attached? Melt with you 'til it all turns black When you smooth it out, but it feels too flat Melt with you 'til it all turns black When you get so close and you can't go back Melt with you 'til it all turns black Melt with you 'til it just feels sad

热烈结束了，在回归平淡的日常中，迷茫随着时间的推移愈发膨胀，这首歌是这专情绪的转折点，很多人觉得这首在这专的位置太差，破坏了整张专辑的情绪递进，但是这张专辑的情绪本身就不是一直向上的，随着平淡而幽怨的紫色过后，是对现状的迷茫和即将失去这段感情的绝望

三，终曲：下行的爱

track eight：the cure

All the pretty girls in the foreground of my mind I thought I'd done enough, but they keep moving the line I thought I found the antidote this time I thought I found the antidote this time All the nights I spend fighting bad thoughts in my room Feeling so alone, might as well be on the moon I thought I found the antidote with you I thought I found the antidote with you But my head is full of poison And my heart is full of doubt I got toxins in my bloodstream You tried hard to suck them out And it feels like medication And it's good for me, I'm sure But it don't matter how your love feels anymore It'll never be the cure It'll never be the cure Used to play a game in my head when I'd date a guy Tally up the girls that he ****ed till I start to cry I thought I found the antidote this time I thought I found the antidote this time But I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled And my head is full of poison And my heart is full of doubt I got toxins in my bloodstream You tried hard to suck them out And it feels like medication And it's good for me, I'm sure But it don't matter how your love feels anymore It'll never be the cure It'll never be the cure Oh, 'cause baby, I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled I'm unraveled Why can't you come stitch me up? Why can't it ever be enough? Why can't you come stitch me up? Why can't it ever be enough? It's not enough All because my head is full of poison And my heart is full of doubt I got toxins in my bloodstream You tried so hard to suck out And it feels like medication And it's good for me, I'm sure But it don't matter how your love feels anymore It'll never be the cure It'll never be the cure It'll never be

在这首歌里，娅娅开始对爱情产生疑问，同时真正注意到了自己内心的创伤，那些细小的嫉妒，不安，孤独，这些创伤无法被爱治愈，这一切只有自己能承受，这代表了娅娅对待感情的看法彻底走向成熟，不再无止境的追逐虚幻的爱情而是开始与自我和解，完全说得上是你娅的生涯最佳

track nine：begged

All that I want Is to know undoubtedly That you just have eyes for me Could you make it clear All that I want Is to sit here silently And watch movies on TV What a shame you’re not here Here to witness my devotion And my endless well of needs I’m an anchor in the ocean You know I could never leave So I’m patient You’re learning Pretend it’s not hurting Ohh They say it’s a virtue To not let good love slip away So I’m cool and forgiving I’ll take what you’re giving Ohh But nothing’s quite enough When I know that to get it I begged Yeah to get it I begged And I have this thought When I lay in bed at night That I feel trapped inside my life Is that a normal thing To fight back the waves Of a static lovers’ dread I’m overwhelmed, I’m underfed And yet I still cling Cling to hope like snow on mountains Careless words melt it away I’m a penny in a fountain Just waiting on my luck to change So I’m patient You’re learning Pretend it’s not hurting Ohh ‘Cause they say it’s a virtue To not let good love slip away So I’m cool and forgiving I’ll take what you’re giving Ohh But nothing’s quite enough When I know that to get it I begged Yeah to get it I begged

在这首民谣中，娅娅发现，自己的感情和生活完全是一团乱麻，这段自己用狂热的追求所得到的爱情，已经成为了自己精神上的负担，而自己则在这种矛盾的拉扯中越陷越深

track ten：what’s wrong with me

I’m just staring at the ceiling Can’t describe this feeling I’ve got in my head I’m out of body in my bed And I’m just searching up my symptoms Desperate to fix ‘em I’ll do anything ‘Cause lately I’ve been spiraling, oh I’m not feeling like myself and Nothing ever seems to help Went to the doctor and she said I was fine But every movie that I see makes me cry It’s like somebody put a weight on my chest I should talk to a friend But I can’t get out of bed My head is spinning and my stomach is sick Say I’m in love, so it’s hard to admit I can’t eat, I can’t sleep I think you’re what’s wrong with me I keep looking for distractions Hope the feeling passes But I’ve got to say It’s getting harder every day And I can’t seem to get around it Head just keeps on pounding with The simple thought What if this isn’t what I want Went to the doctor and she said I was fine Tried meditation with a bottle of wine It’s like somebody put a weight on my chest I should talk to a friend But I can’t get out of bed My head is spinning and my stomach is sick Say I’m in love, so it’s hard to admit I can’t eat, I can’t sleep I think you’re what’s wrong with me I’m not feeling like myself All amber lights and warning bells I’m not feeling like myself And I’m not hiding it well Went to the doctor and she said I was fine But every movie that I see makes me cry It’s like somebody put a weight on my chest I should talk to a friend But I can’t get out of bed My head is spinning and my stomach is sick Say I’m in love, so it’s hard to admit I can’t eat, I can’t sleep I think you’re what’s wrong with me I think you’re what’s wrong with me I think you’re what’s wrong with me I think you’re what’s wrong with me I think you’re what’s wrong with me

这首歌是娅娅和摇滚老将robert smith的合作曲，娅娅开始自我疑问自我剖析，自己是否还要痛苦的维持这段感情，爱对此时矛盾的娅娅来说，已经成为了一种精神上的负担

track eleven：less

I feel it again Edge of the bed Body and head protesting My stomach’s in knots I don’t want to talk Let’s just go to bed or something Maybe it’ll fix itself tomorrow But I’ve been saying that like every night You say you can’t stand to watch me Cry a minute more So you do the noble thing And open up the door If loving me means letting go And wishing me the best Then I guess I wish I wish I wish You loved me less We tried to recreate Our favorite date But we didn’t laugh much this time Our trip to Big Sur Only confirmed This isn’t what it should feel like And maybe I’m a stubborn overthinker But I’ve been thinking over this a lot And I could try convincing you They’re just intrusive thoughts But you’ve seen me truly happy So you know right now I’m not If loving me means Crying on the curb at LAX Well then I guess I wish I wish I wish You loved me less If loving me means saying ‘Babe, I think this is the end’ Well I guess I wish I wish I wish You loved me less

最后这段感情还是走到了终结，在分手过后，娅娅坐在床边，开始悲伤和不舍的回忆：那些曾经美好的过去，那些难以释怀的记忆，最后还是全部都结束了

track twelve：expectations

I met him at a party I think he was on drugs He wasn’t smart or funny I convinced myself he was He had a great apartment And a car his parents bought I thought that he was perfect And now his number’s blocked Took a couple months But now I am secure I am so evolved Now I ask for more and more And more and more and more I won’t settle for a guy with a fake job They seem so desperate for loving But baby I’m not Gave my heart with zero stipulations Now I take careful consideration I’m not kissing any boy that is passive Their indecision is painfully unattractive Past mistakes are just new information These days I’ve got expectations So I hit the new year Like a single girl at a Vegas bar Rockin’ my mini dress With a vodka cran and an open heart Yeah I got hope Yeah I got drive I will not lose my faith Don’t think my future husband’s at this bar in Silverlake But in a couple months A man will be procured He will be evolved And I will be adored Adored, adored, adored, adored I won’t settle for a guy with a fake job They seem so desperate for loving But baby I’m not Gave my heart with zero stipulations Now I take careful consideration I’m not kissing any boy that is passive Their indecision is painfully unattractive Past mistakes are just new information These days I’ve got expectations I’ve got big expectations I’ve got real big expectations I’ve got big expectations I’ve got real big expectations She’s got big expectations She’s got real big expectations She’s got big expectations She’s got real big expectations I won’t settle for a guy with a fake job They seem so desperate for loving But baby I’m not Gave my heart with zero stipulations Now I take careful consideration I’m not kissing any boy that is passive Their indecision is painfully unattractive Past mistakes are just new information These days I’ve got expectations

这首歌利用欢快编曲和轻松的歌词，完美的展示了一个人在分手后面对未来的迷茫中和回想起过去而感到悲伤时，尝试用口号式的宣言来告诉全世界：我已经走出来了，我已经准备好开始下一段感情了，但是实际上，悲伤从未远离，这只是自欺欺人式的狂欢

track thirteen：cigarette smoke

Cigarette smoke The smell that I know It clings to my clothes Seeps into my bones It's a real quiet house With the shower left on Five beers in the fridge and the second car's gone I regret you And how long I stayed I resent you For not being brave, oh-oh Tell me something honest so the memories turn dark You said that I made lovin' look easy 'Til I made it hard Give me back my time and I will give you back your heart I thought that we played the perfect couple 'Til you didn't want the part Some nights can be So fxxking lonely But it's better than beggin' for you to stand up for me, honeybee I regret you What I let slide I resent you For taking her side, oh-oh Tell me something honest so the memories turn dark You said that I made lovin' look easy 'Til I made it hard Give me back my time and I will give you back your heart I thought that we played the perfect couple 'Til you didn't want the part It's bone-dry, bitter and hollow You'll be miles away tomorrow Why'd I try at all? It's bone-dry, bitter and hollow You'll never know my sorrow Why'd I try at all? Tell me somethin' honest so the memories turn dark Ooh, mm, the memories go dark The memories go dark The memories go dark The memories go dark Go dark Go dark

在专辑的最后一曲中，娅娅用婉转和低沉的音乐展现了一种极为复杂和纠葛的感情：你曾经说过我们是天作之和，可我们却分开了，我想怨恨你，但是这这么可能呢。在一切结束之后，当娅娅想要去怨恨对方时，却同样能回忆起曾经的美好和在一起生活时那种带着希望的幸福时光，那些美好和快乐向烟气一般附在自己的衣物，刻进自己的骨髓中，最后只能走向黑暗。。。

专辑也在这种纠结和矛盾的态度中走向了完结。

结语

这真的是一张超级私人化的专辑，丰富的情感底色和细腻的表达方式根本不是我这种半吊子的人说的明白的，码字码到一半我就后悔了，对歌曲的体会含有很多个人的主观要素，每个人心中都有属于自己的哈姆雷特，因此如果体会不同的话，也求求不要抨击我最后这张专辑真的超级无敌好听！如果因为我的原因能对这张专辑感兴趣真是再好不过！

感谢各位的浏览~

全体小棉花保持下半身干燥

个人最喜欢的是第一首，那种迷梦的感觉还有歌手那迷人的嗓音配合很好听呀，特别是高音带有的一些假声部分很上头，歌单+1

娅娅这张专的歌曲都很不错，楼主解读的很详细呢

这张专辑还是不错的，其实一开始绝的不咋滴，直到我a新砖。。也不是不好听，

这一张专辑里面的歌曲感觉要更有深度一些了

真的是很迷人的嗓音啊，非常优越的条件了

你娅真的一直在进步，这张专我也听了好多遍了，循环无压力~觉得比较耐听的就是三首打单歌曲+你加我=<3、烟味

gamemale叙娅音，从发行到现在一直循环这个专辑，感觉头顶要长棉花了